Wednesday, August 12, 2009

My heart beats for heartbroken quotes..

Maybe cause of the emotions that it triggers, I dont know but I search for them. Im always on the look out for them..heres a few that I found that I love::

Wanting him is hard to forget, loving him is hard to regret, losing him is hard to accept, but even with all the hurt I've felt, letting go is the most painful yet.

Sometime you just have to hold your head up high, blink away the tears and say good-bye.

For a few minutes you made me feel as though I actually meant something to someone

I don't know which is worse, being the one with the broken heart or being the person that breaks the hearts.

Im not afraid of heights, I'm afraid of falling. I'm not scared of the dark, I'm scared of what's in it. I'm not afraid of love, I'm afraid of not being loved back.

The tough thing about following you heart is that people forget to mention that sometimes the heart takes you to places you shouldn't be. Places that are scary as they are exciting and as dangerous as they are alluring. Sometimes your heart cannot take you to places that lead to happy ending. That's not even the difficult part; the difficult part is when you follow your heart, you leave normal; you go into the unknown and once you do you can never go back.

In love you find the oddest combinations; materialistic people find themselves in love with idealists; clingers fall in love with players; homebodies capture and try to smother butterflies. It it wasn't so serious we could laugh at it.

Sometimes - no matter how long, or how much you love someone, they will never love you back and somehow you have to learn to be okay with that.

If your gonna make me cry, at least be there to wipe away the tears.

I'm holding on to something that used to be there hoping it will come back, knowing it won't.

This last one, omg, I LOVE it..maybe Im addicted to the pain also, something I need to figure out..

Do I really love him or am I addicted to the pain of wanting something I can't have.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

My color BLUE


I love BLUE! I always have. I guess you can say "Im crazy about BLUE", heck look at my name lol..BLUESREVENGE...what kind of name is that, but I love it. I would be lost without it lol. As a big fan of the color I just know its the color I can't be without. I have no hesitation in stating 'BLUE' when asked the age old question, 'what is your favorite color?'lol..If I had my way, I would paint the world BLUE,lol..Sometimes I can be silly:).

Friday, September 21, 2007

Alone with myself...

Alone at Night Pictures, Images and Photos

The night falls without a sound, so lost am I.
The emotion for which I lust flares once, then dies.
Smothered by my obsession, all hope must surely perish.
My soul thrives no more.
How can you abandon me?
Shadows surround me, crying, save me from myself!!

My random thoughts on rain....

I wish it would rain again. It has such a calming effect on me. Whatever I'm thinking or feeling slowly dissolves through my body. And the smell. Soooo intoxicating. The Earth's perfume is what I jokingly call rain. Tonight I really could use some rain. I hurt sooo bad but my screams must not be heard. My soul is gasping for anything to hold on to. Is anyone out there? I'm slowly fading into the background. Would anyone even notice if I dissapear?

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My Soul Number is TWO

I did my Numerology tonight to see what it would say. I thought I could get alittle laugh out of it but boy was I ever wrong! So close to the truth. WOW! The laugh was on me. Anyway, here it is.....

You need people and feel incomplete without someone to love and care about. Shared happiness and togetherness are more important to you than personal glory or being in the limelight. You are most comfortable being in a supporting role, and you are likely to depend a great deal on your mate and your close friends. Considerate, tactful, and sensitive to the needs of others, you instinctively know how to blend with people. You are adaptable and you understand the ebb and flow, the give and take, the compromises necessary for harmonious relationships.

That was really scary to read! LOL! Oh, theres more.....

You are a peace maker, the one to pour oil over troubled waters, but because you value peace so much, you may submit your own will to another, stronger person rather than fight. Though you don't like to rock the boat, you should learn to stand up for yourself when you need to.

This is slightly off. I'm usually the one fighting. My mouth seems to have a mind of its own at times. Just recently I became my familys BLACK SHEEP! I said the things that others wanted to say but didnt have the guts. I'm ashamed how I acted but still stand up for my beliefs. Hopefully by the holidays this whole matter will dissolve and there will be harmony again if not, It will be some lonely holidays to look forward too. I'm rambling again.......

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Deep Desire...

I am overwhelmed with a burning desire
A desire locked down deep inside
One that cannot be concealed anymore
I long for one sweet kiss to quench my thirst
I long for one tender touch that will last a lifetime
At the end of it all you are my deepest desire!
I love you not today nor tomorrow but forever!

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

My random thinking.....

I wish there was a "easy button" for life at times. Then I could play. Run through the cool grass barefoot with the wind masseging my hair as I look up to meet the sun's ray as they touch my face with their radient arms of gold. The sweet smell of honeysuckle that tingles my nose as I breathe in Earth's lovely scent. I stop for a moment to savour the sensual juice of summer. How my throat burns for the liquid I call lemonade. I shiver and hold myself close. As I dont want this to end. But it will. Everything comes to a end. Why I scream. Why must I suffer the agony of summer's closing. I plead with Mother Nature. This is my moment. I fantasize about the sun's mighty touch that caress's my face thats heavy with tears now. My sweet tears fall from my brown eyes. I look upon the sunset like a lover who was betrayed. A lover who ravished my body with heat then cruelly takes it away. But my lover will be back. I will wait for his tiny kisses that will land on my face like little breathes.